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Credit for banner belongs to stephanie.

EDIT: In relation to fanfiction, those posts will not be privated. Yay.

FIC CHALLENGE LIST:

ONESHOTS:

[Sango/Kohaku] for lewdness.
[Inuyasha/Kouga/Miroku] and [Hiro/Shuichi]for dawnsama.
[Hisoka/Hijiri] for kohakutenshi.
[Cloud/Squall] for linky_link.
[Ayame/Kagome] for shiinabambi.
[Sango/Bankotsu] and [Inuyasha/Kagome] for nghi360.
[Kagome/Kohaku] and [Miroku/Kikyou] for numisma.
[Miroku/Kagome] for tragicamente.
[Kagome/Kikyou] for lone_gothic.
[Inuyasha/Sango] for insanely_poetic


If anyone would like to challenge me, just tell me and I'll add it to the list.

Especially when the sun nearly prompts me to pass out.

I was umpiring, having a jolly good time and then all of a sudden, my legs start getting tired and don't want to bend. Well, I didn't think that much of it until the world starting spinning slightly, so I took a moment to hydrate myself. Thought everything would be okay and THEN, the world started dancing around me in all the spectral colors of the rainbow and I thought "oh shit." So I took even longer to hydrate myself, had some grapes and some bread and went back out after about ten minutes to finish. But then my hands went numb and all I saw was a yellow-orange streak as the ball crossed over the plate and I was done.

At least until the next game. My mom was a real ass about it though. There I am getting ready to pass out and she's yelling at me like its MY fault. As though I asked to umpire in 105 degree weather (which I sort of did) and like I WANTED to pass out and have to step out of the game. YEAH RIGHT. I felt pathetic after that because I had never had to do that before. For some reason, this was just the worst time I've ever had umpiring. I've gotten dizzy before, but never has my vision danced or my legs acted up or my hands gone numb.

And my mom treated my like shit and was mad and acted like it was my fault.

Sometimes, I wish that she had balls so I could kick her in them, ugh.

OMFG, I'm not dead!

On the plus side, I graduate in Spring of 2010. Took me effing long enough, that did.

Oh, and linky_link, Angelica broke her foot. She has to get pins put in her foot and is undergoing surgery today because like the genius she is, she happened to break the worst bone in her foot that she could possibly break. Yay Angelica.

No fanfiction updates, except on Speak Softly. If school wasn't kicking my ass, I would be doing more. Probably won't update again until Winter break. Such is life.

Other than that, everything's going great. Huzzah.

The English essay from hell is finished!

Take that, procrastination. No, I shall not burn in English hell and I feel so much less stressed than I did the day before. All I have to do with wait for the damnable score to get back, but hey, it doesn't matter because I finished EVERYTHING.

Now I just need to SLEEP.

Ugh.

OMFG, THE JOY.

I just heard Utada Hikaru's song, "Come Back to Me", on the radio today. 102.5 KSFM to be exact, and it's a station for R&B and Hip-Hop, which is just awesome. I am squeeing with joy right now.

No, seriously.

SO. HAPPY.

So, um, not dead.

Yeah, just wanted to let everybody know.

That said, SCHOOL IS MURDER AND IT HATES ME. I DIE NOW.

Bye. ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LEORA MAE FRANKS.

DECEMBER 31ST 1940-AUGUST 2ND 2008.

Also, Happy New Years Eve (and New Years) to everyone else. Much love. I hope everyone had some good winter holidays.

Hope to start coming back on with more regularity, though I don't know if that'll happen any time soon. Still, I am living life, however depressing and hard its gotten lately. Im set to starr working soon (hopefully) so that's definitely a good thing. Itll give me more regularity in life. That said, I miss you all and I hope life's been good to you.

So, finished Maou yesterday.

Can I just saw most emotional drama ever? I thought that Last Friends took the cake for that, but, uhm, apparently not. Maou was friggin' insane.

I never though Ohno could make me cry, because I've seen some of this other things and while he acts well, he just never seemed to appeal to me. Ohno's performance in Maou just totally blew me away.

Like, OMFG, that ending. Wah.

Actually, I'm quite excited because another drama is coming out featuring Johnny's boys; Nino and Ryo are co-starring in a new one called Ryusei no Kizuna with Toda Erica, and I'm so damned excited. I don't know what the storyline will be, but I'm just, you know, thrilled. I SO CAN'T WAIT.

That said: Word Counts.

Inuyasha fandom:

Pretext, 1,078 words.

Harry Potter fandom:

Speak Softly, 18,518 words.

Original Fiction:

Egocentricity: ch. 9--13,997 words.
Egocentricity: ch. 10--12,589 words.

Yes, chapters nine and ten of Ego are done. They are not, however, edited, and I suppose I should get started on that sometime soon. You know, when I have a break.

OMFG, MAOU.

Just watched the first episode and I'm just blown away by the whole thing. Ohno is fucking raw in that drama and I LOVE IT.

MUST WATCH MORE.

Also, chapter nine and ten of Ego is complete, and half of chapter six of Speak Softly is also complete. Word counts to come later... I'm not at home, so I can't say how many words each chapter is.

But still. MAOU. LOVE IT.

ASLDFJL;J4OI5UETULKJF

Inuyasha Fandom:

Divine Aspiration: 836 words.


Harry Potter Fandom:

Speak Softly: 8,408 words.


Original Fiction:

Ego: 8,934
OSF: 372

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Divine Aspiration is totally kicking me in the ass. If it's not pacing, it's characterization. If it's not characterization, it's pacing. I HATE IT.

Speak Softly is very much the same, though once I get back into the swing of things with that story, everything will flow smoothly. I just think I may be out of angst or something. I mean, you can only angst so much before it finally takes it toll on you and leaves you exhausted. That said, I have quite a bit of it written, though there's still more to write. I think that this'll probably be one of the longest chapters I've written, ever once I'm through with it.

Oh, the joy.

Egocentricity is still puttering along, though I do have quite a bit of that written, too. It's a bit stilted at some parts, but hopefully I'll be able to smooth those out in time. It's just... annoying, really.

OSF is just neglected. I don't think I'll start writing on that until I get the newest chapter of Ego posted.

I think I'll probably write better as soon as I'm back in school. I mean, I always get more ideas when I'm in school, and that probably has more to the do with the fact that my mind is being constantly cultivated and filled with knowledge, and schools always helps me to keep up my vocabulary. Better vocabulary, better writing.

Joy.

I'VE FINALLY FINISHED CHAPTER FIVE OF SPEAK SOFTLY. LONGEST FUCKING CHAPTER OF MY LIFE!!!!!

The chapter, as a whole, is at 22,871 words. Which is, incidentally, an all time high for me though there was another chapter that reached 22,502 words. Needless to say, it was a bitch to write even though I technically only wrote 9,729 words since I posted the first half of the chapter. But still! My spleen! It aches! My head! It aches! My eyes! They ache!

Everything fucking aches and it's all because of the damned angst! Whoever created angst and decided that I should specialize in that writing form needs to be shot. Though, admittedly, this half of the chapter was more action than emotional angst and the next chapter will be positively dripping with psuedo-action and angst.

FUCKING JOY.

But I'm so excited to write it, too. Though I will take a week off before attempting to tackle anything (like editing what I've just finished, for instance)... but don't quote me on that because I lie and break promises all the time (Yes, I'm a bad person).

That said, I'm umpiring tonight and I always get nervous. It's like playing a game for the first time or having to play the viola in front of everyone and their mother.

Wah.

My joy had disappeared.

Wonderful.

Inuyasha Fandom:

Divine Aspiration, chapter thirteen: 1,989 words and counting
Through the Eyes of an Innocent, chapter thirteen: 145 words and counting
Pretext, chapter two: 183 words and counting

Harry Potter fandom:

Speak Softly, chapter 5 part 2: 7,419 words and counting

Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha fandom:

Greetings from Al Hazard: 157 words and counting.

Original Fiction:

Egocentricity, chapter nine: 3,043 words and counting
O.S.F, chapter three: 372 words and counting

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I have too much on my plate. I really do. But, you know, with all the time I have on my hands it's really no surprise that I'm writing so much.

I'm trying to finish Speak Softly chapter 5-2, because chapter six is one that's absolutely pivotal in the story, and the one chapter I'm most excited about. I mean, really. I already have chapters seven and eight written, so I just need six, then I'll edit those other two chapters, post them, and only have approximately four more left to write. I'll be so pleased once I'm done with that story, too. As much as I like it, it really is emotionally draining. I mean, the fucking angst... sometimes I think it's just too much. Besides, it's only five chapters in and already at 90,000 words.

It'll probably be at 200,000 words by the time it's done... maybe even more, seeing as to how each chapter averages 20,000 words a chapter and it's already been expanded to go over the ten chapters I originally intended.

Sometimes I really hate my muse.

That said, I really am excited about where Divine Aspiration is headed. It's at chapter twelve and finally--FINALLY--the first signs of love have started to arrive. Between Inuyasha and Kagome I mean, not Miroku and Sango. Of course, the Inuyasha/Kikyou thing has already sprouted, which kind of sucks, but you gotta love cliches. That said, the whole Miroku/Kagome kissing scene I couldn't help but write somehow ended up in there, and I did want to make it a Miroku/Kagome story at that point. I REALLY, REALLY DID.

But I stuck to my original pairings (kind of) which pleases me. Yay.

As for Ego and Operation... well there's not much to say about that, is there? It's just a bunch of CRACK.

Plus I have to write CloudxSquall crack!fic for linky_link. And yes, Ang, that will count as my challenge fic for you. It will, I tell you, it really will!

But I have too much shit to do right now--

Dear Mom,
Those cheerleaders and those collages... STOP SAYING YOU'RE GOING TO DO THAT CRAP. I'm tired of fucking doing those for those stupid selfish bitches. They don't deserve them. And you ALWAYS tell me about it AT THE LAST MINUTE. Plus, I already told you that I wasn't going to do it this year, yet you still--STILL--are forcing me into this unwanted position. I'm so mad I could maim something right about now. MAIM. MUTILATE. DESTROY. I'm fucking pissed.

Which is why I should just take it out on imaginary characters and be done with it. Yeah.

Love,
Kourtney

--but I will spam your journal with impromptu Cloud/Squall ficcage. I will, I tell you, I really will!

And, if it's funny enough, I will post it somewhere.

Um. Yes. I swear.

Really.